By now you must have decided what you’re going to think of me,
That I’m an empty fool, that I’m heartless and cruel
I know I seem like I’ve never had the gift of Sight
But, trust me, I know it because I have seen this all before
These walls won’t let you get anywhere close to me
But your smile is starting to think it means the most to me
And maybe it doesn’t make sense
But every time I try to breathe, it hurts
In case you decide I’m not what you wanted
Every time I see you, the less it makes sense
And when your heart leaves me, the well dries up
I’m just trying to keep protecting my innocence
Maybe I’m addicted to protecting this soul
Doesn’t it seem like you’re right for me?
But I’m waiting for the breath of a daydream
To align with my days in your burning world
Not quite right here, but still right now
You are hovering, a weight on my mind
And in the darkest hour, you are a dream
Must I explain I can’t thank you enough?
Am I so insane as I feel I must be?
For you, I would pick up the pieces,
And somehow find a midnight train.
You know I got my reasons,
But, darling, you won’t hear me explain.
Don’t blame it on me, I had an open mind
I’m such a burden, I fear I’ve been burning
Go ahead if you must judge my sins
I have no fear for what they could bring
Why’d you have to fill up my heart?
I’ve got to find a way to save me,
I have to go run and make it all hazy
So I don’t think about you tomorrow.
It hits me again without fair warning
Your swimming reflection finds my side
But then I know it must be only in my mind.
’Cause I’m out of touch with sleep
And Lord knows there’s no relief
You held my heart in your fingertips
So now do I drown in my bitterness?
All that I am asking you for
Is just a little of my old clarity back
Hell, that’s all that really matters to me
Your face in and out of focus
Are you seeing invisible tears in my eyes?
My head is only made of ruins
The beautiful ones a word from you
And speaking of speaking, won’t you call me?
Can we have another one-on-one, please?
I think it’s time we talk about freedom
Well, honestly, I know I’m young, I’m foolish
I’m a product of the past, I know I’ve been wrong
And come too close to giving away everything.
So don’t let me come too close to losing it all.
I never thought I’d learn
So much from being so lonely
I must not have learned enough
But it’s a lifelong lesson and I’m not pretending
When I say, you see, you cleared up my scars
For the times you’ve been so good to me,
And looked like you can show me how to live
And now it seems you taught me to feel free
But now I know all how all your bridges hit the sea
So you built up another one and made it stronger
Boy, and helped us cross it, all through your own need
Now you have the walls in your face, and you know
I’m too far from happy, and you’re too far from me.
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