The End of All the Endings

Brianna R Duffin

Table of Contents:

1. Too Complicated
2. Cross My Heart
3. My Story
4. Risk
5. Green
6. Desperate
7. Big Reputation
8. TRUST
9. Don’t Come For Me
10. Letting Go
11. Broken
12. One Good Reason
13. Eyes Roaming
14. In That Moment…
15. You
16. Too Fast
17. Spotlight
18. Our World
19. How We Celebrated Christmas
20. Everything
21. One of Them
22. Our Favorite Song
23. END

Too Complicated

I’m not supposed to be grieving

My Baby wasn’t supposed to pass

How did this happen

How did I wind up counting dead roses

How did I wind up being reminded of proper funeral decorous

I can’t explain what’s going on

Something happened when that boy came along

That boy who started dating my firstborn son…

What has that boy done?

I’m not supposed to be burying my Baby,

Shouldn’t be standing by a pile of dirt with no one to clutch my hand

I shouldn’t have ice in my heart over my pride and joy as I hold his jersey

How did anything ever go wrong for us

How did a present, devoted, loving mother and a smart, strong, sweet boy end up here

How could God let us find ourselves in a cemetery we have no way out of

I can’t reconcile this horrible day with real life

Something went terribly wrong

When that boy came along

I’m not supposed to find myself sobbing, weeping, and doing nothing else

It was all so nice a week ago, throwing big parties

I shouldn’t be making a speech about my son in front of everyone