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I’ve been waiting for you to reverse the hands

Of time. But you won’t say what I need to hear,

So now I know you can’t rebuild what you burned.

You spent all my life seeping demons into me, from you

And you made me earn but never showed a seed of your truth

My personal monster among all the shadowy men,

You wonder why I could never love you, ever again.

I hope your sweet words lie to me one last time, poison my sippy cup

But I already know the truth is your DNA will always be screwed up

Short fuse, half truths, games, and putting a knife through my new bed

But you burned too much of our hearts and now the fire’s dead

And I can’t give you redemption.

I’ve had you swimming in my mind too often

But you’ve already gone- are you broken too?

Are you all alone these days, just like me

Or are you moving forward, let me see

Push me, push me, push, I pull away

But you need me, you tell me to stay

You know if the walls could talk we’d fall from grace

Reputation blackened, mahogany stains on pearl lace

I can think but I don’t want to

Cause when you talk fast, it’s all you

I could never have made you a better person

No matter how many chances with each new monsoon

No matter where I go, I’ll always remember the places I’ve been

Even though I know it’s all gone I can’t forget the ugly sin

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Thank you for reading this emotional poem. It’s deeply personal to me and reflects the current chapter of my life story, as you saw. Let me know what you thought of it, please don’t be shy.

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