I could try to run, but it would be useless

You’re still the only one here to blame

You’re the reason I’ll never be the same

You begged “Stop playing safe, girl, lose control”

And I surrendered, I gave in to your will that day

Sorry to myself, I couldn’t help but overhear you

Your face is the name, voice just as I remember

Maybe your hair’s longer, arms a little stronger

I never prepared for a moment like that to hit me

So it took nothing to bring me right back in time

My eyes won’t cry anymore, done looking back

But still, I love control too much, has to be my way

I knew when I saw you you’d get all in my way

You act like an addict, one hit and it’s never enough

You want to run through me inside and out

Dirty tissues still hanging out, trust issues- lock it up

And the voices bouncing around in my head

Hesitate, hesitate again. Stop. Stop. Go.

Where’s the sunshine, I lost the safe and sound

Why do I still bother? Why did you ever bother?

I should’ve done better, you should’ve done better

Because now I get to stay up, fighting the moon

You have to give and I have to break

How did it get so far gone that I couldn’t see truth?

Hoping I’m not hopeless, I’m hiding emotions

Because gravity can’t hold me down, gravity

Can’t hide the consequences.

Thank you for reading this poem. If you liked it, let me know and be sure to check out more of my recent poetry here on Medium.

…BRD…

I write poetry, prose, and personal pieces. All images are mine unless indicated otherwise. Feel free to leave feedback on my work anytime; I hope you enjoy.

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